Sunday, January 11, 2009

How does it feels to be alive?



Woke up this morning, I figure I should thank god for returning me to my baseline health again today (yet I’m still dauntingly waiting for my illness to strike again while at the same time hoping that moment would never come) after about a week or so. thus i've decided it's time for me to write my second post since last christmas...hmmm what took me so long? 

Anyway, I’ve done some research over the net trying to diagnose myself, figuring out what the hell just happened to me ever since the last seven years of tormenting cyclical vomiting episodes that I could no longer bear, it’s a nightmare…!!! A horrendous, unspeakable and appalling nightmare that haunt you when you are awake.

A little bit of history, actually I’ve been to 5 different specialists who diagnosed me with 8 different diagnoses (peptic ulcer, UGIB, reflux esophagitis, acute gastritis and god knows what else) which I believe couldn’t be as more confusingly perplexing as this, I am more than convinced that I’ve been misdiagnosed. Different diagnose would also means different prescription of medications, so I got the “luxury” of testing different kind of drugs that surely weren’t as fun as the recreational one.

So regarding my research, my self diagnosis shows that I'm likely suffering from CVS (cyclical vomitting syndrome). I prefer to use the acronym instead of "cyclical vomitting syndrome" since it sounds like puke and it makes me feels like puking. Discovery of CVS is relatively new, and the published research works are few and far between. I understand that, in Malaysia only UMMC conducts the research to unravel  the mystery of CVS. Taking that into account, I think not just we the masses  are not aware of this crazy syndrome, but the doctors themselves are also not in the knowing. Sometimes these doctors ended up beating around the bushes trying to explain things that they don't even have a clue, and this is exactly what happened to me after seeing 5 different specialists who diagnosed me with 8 different diagnoses.  


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